Today he is 15. Tall, beautiful, talented, bold and confident in his place in the world and making plans for how he is going to change the world.

Yesterday his new ICD went off right after an indoor drumline performance.  It was a relief and kinda funny because he seemed happy, kinda energized when he told me he had been shocked.  He had been running while pushing the timpani cart and felt the palpitations and sat on his timpani stool waiting for the ICD to go off.  It was like getting hit in the back, kinda scary but not at all what he thought it might be like.... the story can go on.  But the bottom line is my sweet little boy is turning into a man and the bag he carries into his grown up life is so very heavy.  Are you there God? Are you watching over him and helping carry his load or are you carrying him right now?

3 months ago he had cardiac arrest at a football game, was airflighted to the hospital and saved by a heart / lung machine.  3 weeks later he was home and catching up on school work. By the end of the quarter he not only is all caught up, but has a 4.0 GPA and has started back to 2 honor programs and the indoor program.  He's scarecrow thin and has a smile that will melt your heart.

And I know God is there because my boy is here with us.  God is Great and I thank Him for this most glorious Mother's Day present... my man boy ....